blog?

i've been wondering for so long.. why am i wasting so much time here just to write blog? i mean ppl out there busy writing blog maybe just to let their friends to read it, or maybe they just wanna share what they are thinking about..i guess i know my reason..as i have not many friends that will check out whats written in my blog..haha..so i just note down what happened in my daily life..since i got nobody to share it with..hehe..its nice to just let it all out here..since nobody knows n cares..hehe..hmm...why am i being so emotional these days? i keep myself busy by going out with my friends..what happened to me? i mean, what makes me cant stop thinking about something?? or someone??? i just don't like what it feels..i tried so hard to avoid thinking bout it, but im just not strong enough...i need strength, i need courage, i need a shoulder to cry on, i need someone to hear me.. finally i know, i need Him.. i just hope He will hear me n answer me..as im totally lost because of that person..omg..but then, i realised that its not worth to think much bout that person.. as i know God has already prepared whats best for me... theres only once in a lifetime..that means no second chance..therefore, God's choice is the best for me.. hehe..i feel totally relieved since i got so many ppl to be appreciated than that person..ppl that cares me no matter what happen..ppl that love me for who i am.. so, let time heals everything.. so when the time has come..i know its His will.. n i will rejoice, praising His name, for giving me such a great life partner..